Faithful Friday / Faithful To Comfort

Here I am 20 years old, and pregnant with our 2nd baby, the first of five that I miscarried. I'll use a portion of my first book, Refuge Ranch: A Story for His Glory to share the story.

"After barely announcing the pregnancy on New Year's night of 1979, I came down with the flu. After a week of raging fever, I lost our little baby. I was devastated! I understood that the fever had damaged the fetus. I understood that, yes, I was young and could have other children. But I didn't want other children, I wanted my baby. The "why's" sent me spiraling into a sea of depression. The only blessing that I could see was that as least I had nearly 2 year old Christy at home to hold and cuddle, but that didn't stop the pain. In Your mercy You touched the heart of a dear lady who had suffered far worse that I had to come and share her story. She had carried her little daughter full term. Her baby had suffered brain damage due to a difficult delivery in which forceps were misused. This caused the death of her little baby girl. For the first time in weeks, I could really see that it could have been worse. Others had said so, but they were not walking in my pain, and I could not believe them. You used this woman to reach my heart that had become extremely cold.

I am older and wiser now, but at the tender age of twenty I thought life stopped with every tragedy. Lord, did I ever have a lot to learn."

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After two and o half months of pain and depression Daddy God sent just the person I needed to share with me. I am so thankful that He never leaves us comfortless. I still wonder about my baby boy. I named him Wesley, and it excites me to think of seeing him in Heaven one day. He'll have so much to share and tell me I'm sure. But one of the things I don't feel any more In regards to him is the pain. God has faithfully removed it. In Heaven He's gonna wipe away every tear from our eyes, and sometimes if we let Him, He will do it down here on earth. He's so FAITHFUL!

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